Sunday, February 1, 2009

My aunt died suddenly yesterday. I'm heartbroken and I'm going to miss her something fierce. Tonight's hard. Feeling like I'm grieving a whole lot more than just her passing. Feels like I'm crying out all the grief of the last 20 years or so...hurts like hell frankly.

A few years back, when I was living in Seattle, things got a bit rough. I felt like a lost little kid without direction about where to go next. My aunt sent me a little picture book with a CD of this song attached. It was a great gift and a true blessing (I don't use that word lightly) to me. Gave me hope when things looked pretty bleak...That's just how she was.

Damn, I'm going to miss her!!

7 comments:

  1. So sorry for yr loss Laura...yr grief reflects yr deep love for her

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  2. thanks fif. i'm getting the opportunity to speak at her memorial service for which i'm very grateful because i want to be able to say goodbye.

    this weekend i was with some folks that have become good fiends over the last couple months. so it was good in that regard.

    still a bit sureal though.

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  3. I'm so sorry for your loss Laura. My heart aches for you. Let me know if there is anything I can do...

    Life is short, live it, don't be a bystander and I see you living it a lot lately and it is fun to experience with you.

    Peace

    LMW

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  4. Thanks Lis-
    yeah...we're having some fun huh?
    I'm enjoying it too.

    would you mind calling the cow place and rescheduling part 2 of the class? that would be really helpful. Service is on Saturday...

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  5. I hope all went well yesterday Laura. Thanks so much for sharing here. Wishing you strength and sympathy during this very difficult time.

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  6. Thanks KB- it went really well! It was a beautiful service that she would have loved! Her 3 kids talked at the beginning. Then we in the family got to say stuff. 3 of us talked. Then they opened it up to friends..lots of people spoke. Every story was really good! My aunt had alot of impact on alot of lives, that's for sure.

    There was 2 songs by my "little" cousins (next generation down from me) and then my aunt's friend who did an AMAZING job!!

    It was a great send off...

    Been having a wonderful time just hanging out with the family for the last couple days.

    Tomorrow I'm going over to the house, probably for the very last time. That's going to be HARD but thinking I gotta do it.

    Thanks for the concern.

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  7. Hey Laura, so so sorry mate! May your memories be peaceful. dennis

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